October 2010
last night...
possibly the best night ever.
my bestfriend and i got to relive our childhood via music: cheetah girls, hilary duff, spice girls, and so on. our choreography was amazingly legit.<3
the best part was the hoedown throwdown, where i was miley cyrus for like 3 minutes LOL. it was just great…and i got paid for it.
i love vivian and our terrible clues, deep conversations, dances, and all...
dear person who knows who they are,
i want this to be behind us. this is the last time i’m ever addressing it.
first, i’m sorry i lied. but you should know that it only started this past friday. never before that. second, i’m sorry of how i treat you all the time. i don’t learn from my mistakes. i try so hard to be perfect and please everyone, and sometimes i hurt the...
“You can either make yourself happy, or others happy. You can never please...”
– Vivian Dutton.
dear clara,
you’re screwed.
love, reality.
“And I find it kind of funny…I find it kind of sad: the dreams in which...”
– Mad World; Tears For Fears.
Cross the line if it's always the one you know you...
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
the approval of others.
i almost never get this, though.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone...
everything.
i’m not athletic, but i’ve been a dancer for 12 years. when i say music is my life, i don’t mean i just like to listen to it. i mean it’s what i do, as well. sometimes i would rather sit home and listen to broadway songs instead of be around people. i’m not good at being a good friend. i complain that no one cares about me, but then push away the ones...
sometimes i feel like my only friend.
a real best friend would laugh at him and say you deserve much more.
a real best friend would tell him he doesn’t deserve you.
a real best friend wouldn’t talk to him.
a real best friend wouldn’t talk about him.
a real best friend wouldn’t have interfered in the first place.
so, what does that make me?
i’m sorry. i wish i could just say this to you.
but...
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you...
i hated this vacation.
but, i love to go out on boats on lakes in the middle of nowhere.
it’s peaceful.
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being...
hmm.
i like guys that are different. i don’t mean like someone completely far out there, just someone who doesn’t always go along with everyone else. he has to like music a lot. idunno, this is too hard…
“Dear Mr. Vernon,
We accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday...”
– The Breakfast Club
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
cj, because it’s my first 2 initials.
claudia, because that’s what my 5th grade teacher always called me.
claire, because people suck at pronouncing my name.
clara joey, because that’s what my uncle always calls me.
cricket, because when i was little i made these chirping sounds.
clarie, because that’s what my brother calls me.
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
i didn’t feel like doing this yesterday; whatever.
i plan to graduate highschool, and go to a college with a music therapy program. a scholarship would be cool. i think i’d like to work as a music therapist in a maternity ward.
i want to be happily married, and live within reasonable distance of my family.
i would also like to keep contact with my close friends, because i...
i like how my friends make me feel like i’m a terrible person. it really makes my day, honestly. i also like how they don’t invite me places, and make me feel like i have no life. that’s the best. or when they obviously don’t care about me? favorite thing. <3
i’m just going to be honest here. i only have 3 people i consider my real bestfriends. taylor krupiak,...
the hardest part is letting go.
forgiving is easy.
it’s forgetting that’s the hard part.
second chances are easy to give.
it’s deciding when you’re out of them that’s the hard part.
life is hard.
it’s appreciating that you have one that’s the easy part.
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives...
asdfghjkl.
i have no idea.
i guess, my mom. just so i could see things from her point of view. i’d probably appreciate everything she does a lot more.
i know that’s not like “omg i want to be famous for a day!”, but i like my life how it is.
so yea.
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
pretty much all of my pictures on here are from homecoming…so yea.
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs...
okay.
crash world…hilary duff.
wonderwall…straight no chaser.
the only difference between martyrdom+suicide is press coverage…panic! at the disco.
falling stars…david archuleta.
i’m not your toy…la roux.
can’t take that away…the friday night boys.
full moon…black ghosts.
heartless…kris allen.
so what…p!nk.
my...
One word turns into a war. Why is it the smallest...
i can’t do this anymore.
it’s not worth it anymore.
i hardly have any real friends anymore.
i’m done.
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
i don’t have any pictures with all of us, so…
this is my dad.<3
this is my mom. <3
and this is my brother. <3
our lovely little family.
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you...
dear person,
you never tell me anything anymore. everytime i try to talk to you, we end up fighting. you tell me to go get a boyfriend and get over myself, which isn’t what i want to hear. i feel like i don’t mean as much to you anymore. but i guess it’s okay. i honestly hate to see you throwing your life away for a guy, but i have nothing against either of you. it’s your...
“I love how music does that to you. It has the power to make the artist...”
– Adam Young.
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you...
how: this one girl on facebook had one, and i decided to look at it.
why: i needed some place to write, and it looked cool.
lolz.
“You want to go streaking tomorrow? Why wait until tomorrow?!”
– Caitlyn Huebner.
my saturday has consisted of sleeping, reading gossip girl novels, eating food, going to dance, watching jersey shore+world of jenks reruns, eating more food, going shopping, painting my nails+then taking the polish off, and eating even more food.
it’s been a pretty good day. happy half birthday to me.(:
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
taylor, caitlyn, and jake.
basically my three best friends.
i still miss summer. </3
Doesn't change a thing.
I can hear their voices carry up the stairs. They’re together. Laughing; crying; whatever. Always. It scares me. Sometimes when you are with someone too much, you lose yourself. I miss the way it used to be.
The wind sounds like thunder as it rushes down the street, twisting through the trees and bringing back memories of simpler days.
When we would walk home together and throw our bags on...
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy,...
okay…i’m not picking songs.
Happy: Owl City. Colbie Caillat. Straight No Chaser. John Mayer. Alex Day.
Sad: Simple Plan. Sara Bareilles. A Fine Frenzy. The Format. Sky Sailing.
Bored: pretty much any random band…All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, Cobra Starship, Danger Radio, Every Avenue, Fall Out Boy, Good Charlotte, Hellogoodbye, etc.
Hyped: Ke$ha.<3 Lady Gaga. Selena...
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few...
asdfghjkl.
i’m proud that i started over. i let all of it go. it’s nice.
i’m happy.
Forgive me if I seem forward, but I’ve never been in front of anything like you. It’s the last place I ever thought I’d be when I woke up this morning. Is it true that you are always this breathtaking? And you’re smart, and you’re willing. And, my god, this is killing me. Tell me all the things you never said. We can lie here and talk for hours in my bed. I...
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
okay. uhm…i’d like to:
not fight with my friends. because we’ve fought enough the past two weeks to last us a lifetime.
stop gossiping. because i don’t do it a lot, but i notice when i do it and it makes me feel gross.
actually do my homework. because i keep putting off until 11:30.
stop using the word hate. because it can ruin people.
start listening to my parents....
“You taste just like glitter mixed with rock and roll.”
– Boys Boys Boys; Lady Gaga.
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has...
this is my music teacher. she’s pretty much my role model. she’s made a huge impact on my life by helping me do what i love, and never telling me that i’m not good enough. she always supports me in things involved with music, and encourages me to pursue what i want.
note: no idea why there’s an alice in wonderland reference in this picture…
anyways. this may not...
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
hahaha, this one is stupid.(:
spiderman. <3 idunno why, but i’ve always loved him.
end the battle; you know you've won.
asdfghjkl. today, today, today. completely changed everything.
there was one moment where i realized i hadn’t been that happy in a long time. and i probably won’t be that happy for a long time again. but it was nice.
i also realized that maybe i deserve better. i really don’t like losing friends. but maybe it’s what’s best sometimes. lettting people walk all over me...
cross the line if you lost your bestfriend.
cross again if you’d trade the world to get them back.
