October 2010
dear person who knows who they are,
i want this to be behind us. this is the last time i’m ever addressing it.
first, i’m sorry i lied. but you should know that it only started this past friday. never before that. second, i’m sorry of how i treat you all the time. i don’t learn from my mistakes. i try so hard to be perfect and please everyone, and sometimes i hurt the...
“You can either make yourself happy, or others happy. You can never please...”
– Vivian Dutton.
dear clara,
you’re screwed.
love, reality.
“And I find it kind of funny…I find it kind of sad: the dreams in which...”
– Mad World; Tears For Fears.
Cross the line if it's always the one you know you...
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
the approval of others.
i almost never get this, though.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone...
everything.
i’m not athletic, but i’ve been a dancer for 12 years. when i say music is my life, i don’t mean i just like to listen to it. i mean it’s what i do, as well. sometimes i would rather sit home and listen to broadway songs instead of be around people. i’m not good at being a good friend. i complain that no one cares about me, but then push away the ones...
sometimes i feel like my only friend.
a real best friend would laugh at him and say you deserve much more.
a real best friend would tell him he doesn’t deserve you.
a real best friend wouldn’t talk to him.
a real best friend wouldn’t talk about him.
a real best friend wouldn’t have interfered in the first place.
so, what does that make me?
i’m sorry. i wish i could just say this to you.
but...
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you...
i hated this vacation.
but, i love to go out on boats on lakes in the middle of nowhere.
it’s peaceful.
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being...
hmm.
i like guys that are different. i don’t mean like someone completely far out there, just someone who doesn’t always go along with everyone else. he has to like music a lot. idunno, this is too hard…
“Dear Mr. Vernon,
We accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday...”
– The Breakfast Club
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
cj, because it’s my first 2 initials.
claudia, because that’s what my 5th grade teacher always called me.
claire, because people suck at pronouncing my name.
clara joey, because that’s what my uncle always calls me.
cricket, because when i was little i made these chirping sounds.
clarie, because that’s what my brother calls me.
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
i didn’t feel like doing this yesterday; whatever.
i plan to graduate highschool, and go to a college with a music therapy program. a scholarship would be cool. i think i’d like to work as a music therapist in a maternity ward.
i want to be happily married, and live within reasonable distance of my family.
i would also like to keep contact with my close friends, because i...
i like how my friends make me feel like i’m a terrible person. it really makes my day, honestly. i also like how they don’t invite me places, and make me feel like i have no life. that’s the best. or when they obviously don’t care about me? favorite thing. <3
i’m just going to be honest here. i only have 3 people i consider my real bestfriends. taylor krupiak,...
the hardest part is letting go.
forgiving is easy.
it’s forgetting that’s the hard part.
second chances are easy to give.
it’s deciding when you’re out of them that’s the hard part.
life is hard.
it’s appreciating that you have one that’s the easy part.
